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Reconnecting...
Jul. 3rd, 2019 09:26 amWay back in the long long ago, I had a LiveJournal. I used the thing pretty religiously. And then, at a certain point, I just stopped.
I'm not sure how or why that happened. Maybe I felt like it was immature of me to spew my thoughts and feelings all over the internet. Maybe it was the advent of Friendster, Myspace, and then Facebook that took me away from this place. I honestly don't know for sure.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about "my true self". While, during the time period that I had a LiveJournal, I was young, immature, very emotional, and enduring the effects of an abusive relationship, there are things about the person I was that I feel like were true to who I really am. Over time, I feel like I have lost my connection with the person who could freely write poetry, daydream, and make connections to things that were seemingly unrelated. I miss her.
I've felt an unrelenting frustration that I cannot seem to get around. I am not sure what the cause is. It might be that social media has made everything feel shallow. Facebook posts aren't meant to be like journal entries; lengthy and detailed. Everything is reduced to a headline, and it seems that no one could ever be bothered to read anything beyond that. I might be missing the connection that was present in a LiveJournal community because one had to invest so much more into keeping caught up with friends and strangers.
I might be on to something with returning here, or I might be completely wrong in thinking I can regain something I've lost by trying to recreate the past. While I know what I am trying to say about my return to blogging communities, I don't know if the gibberish I have just spouted above really conveys the message I am trying to communicate.
Regardless, I think the users of Dreamwidth may be more my pace. I hope to make some new friends and be inspired by the users I discover here. Maybe some of my amazing friends who would write so passionately when we were in highschool will also make a return to this place craving the same thing I am.
Regardless of anything, I hope to reconnect with the person I was, and hopefully, help her mature to the full potential of who she was meant to be.
I'm not sure how or why that happened. Maybe I felt like it was immature of me to spew my thoughts and feelings all over the internet. Maybe it was the advent of Friendster, Myspace, and then Facebook that took me away from this place. I honestly don't know for sure.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about "my true self". While, during the time period that I had a LiveJournal, I was young, immature, very emotional, and enduring the effects of an abusive relationship, there are things about the person I was that I feel like were true to who I really am. Over time, I feel like I have lost my connection with the person who could freely write poetry, daydream, and make connections to things that were seemingly unrelated. I miss her.
I've felt an unrelenting frustration that I cannot seem to get around. I am not sure what the cause is. It might be that social media has made everything feel shallow. Facebook posts aren't meant to be like journal entries; lengthy and detailed. Everything is reduced to a headline, and it seems that no one could ever be bothered to read anything beyond that. I might be missing the connection that was present in a LiveJournal community because one had to invest so much more into keeping caught up with friends and strangers.
I might be on to something with returning here, or I might be completely wrong in thinking I can regain something I've lost by trying to recreate the past. While I know what I am trying to say about my return to blogging communities, I don't know if the gibberish I have just spouted above really conveys the message I am trying to communicate.
Regardless, I think the users of Dreamwidth may be more my pace. I hope to make some new friends and be inspired by the users I discover here. Maybe some of my amazing friends who would write so passionately when we were in highschool will also make a return to this place craving the same thing I am.
Regardless of anything, I hope to reconnect with the person I was, and hopefully, help her mature to the full potential of who she was meant to be.
