Sleep Experiments

For the past week, I have been working to improve the quality and quantity of my sleep. I've done things like stop consuming caffeine past 4pm, and use a sleep tracker. I think I have been feeling more rested, but I really need to do this experiment long term to know that this feeling is actually as a result of my changes, or if it is just a coincidence. So far though, assuming that my changes really are making an impact, it seems like I am getting better sleep. 

We leave for TwitchCon on Wednesday. I mean, I guess I am excited for our trip, but I am also not. I hate that TC will be in San Diego. San Diego is so fucking stressful for me. I feel like we worked really hard to escape San Diego, and now we are going to go "vacation" in the very place that just caused so much stress and poor quality of life. What's worse is that everyone who hasn't lived there since their birth seems to think that San Diego is this "dream city". So I just feel sick every time someone talks about how great it is, or asks me "why in the world would I ever want to leave San Diego?!". Be a San Diego native. Grow up, live, and work full time in San Diego. Pay fucking rent in San Diego. Then tell me how insane I am. Please. 

Anyway, I am hopeful that we will have a good time. But I am worried that we are going to get pulled in a million different directions because people will want to meet up and see us... but we have a convention that we are attending and we aren't renting a car. I don't know. Meh. 

Anyway, one thing that has been sucking about sleep lately is that, around bed time and when I wake up, I feel this feeling of being really full. Even though I didn't eat a crap ton before bed. Not really sure what is going on there. I did switch when I take my medication to the morning. So I am wondering if this is some weird side effect I never noticed before because I was usually asleep while it was happening? But if that is the case, that may explain why I was getting such shitty sleep before hand. When we get back from our trip, I will be scheduling an appointment with my doctor to discuss it. That is, if the symptoms don't go away. 

My boss is out sick today and I came in early to flex hours I need to make up for our flight on Wednesday. I am feeling somewhat distracted and not really able to focus on work. I really wish I could just take the whole fucking week off. Honestly, I probably have the PTO to do that too... Meh, but because I didn't really discuss it with my manager, I feel like I can't really just be like," Okay, well... I'm going to leave now!' Especially since we are waiting on some feedback for something I created so I can put it on the LMS. 

I guess I should get to work. I am going to do my daily tarot draw and contemplate some shit before I really dive into work though. Maybe thinking some shit through will help me focus on what I need to be doing versus what I want to be doing. 

Oh, one more thing! On Saturday, I recorded music stuffs! I haven't gotten to editing any of it, and I don't know if any of it is actually usable. I honestly only recorded very short clips of what I was doing and plan on editing and piecing it all together. That may or may not work in my favor, but I am really just experimenting. Fuck, my stomach hurts. 

Also, I learned to tune my Kalimba to C minor. Boy was that fucking annoying as fuck. But now my Kalimba sounds gorgeous. :) Maybe I will tote that around with me throughout the convention center. I dunno, might be soothing for me. That said though, I don't want anyone to ask to touch/play with it. It's fucking MY emotional support Kalimba, bitches! 

Alright, for real though... off I go to do things.