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Welp, I am back from TwitchCon. It was a little interesting to be back in San Diego. I am grateful to find that I didn't really miss it. I mean, it was fine, and it was nice to see SD again, but I wasn't homesick. I actually was excited and relieved to get back to Nebraska.
I bought a bad ass pair of wireless headphones. I am really amped to use them for streaming. Which also means, I am amped to get back to streaming!
We got back last night, but I stayed home today because 1. I don't feel very well (Yay! Con sickness!), and 2. I want to clean up this fucking house a bit. It's a bit of a mess. The dog comes home on Saturday and there is some dog proofing that needs to happen. I also need to go grocery shopping and do laundry. I mowed the front lawn yesterday after almost a month of not mowing. The backyard needs to be mowed as well but there was no way I could do that side of the house last night. Way too tired. And of course, today it is a bit wet, so it probably isn't a good idea to try today. Supposedly Thursday is going to be a dry and warm day, so maybe I will get the backyard done on Thursday after work.
I deleted the facebook app and its accompanying messenger app as well. I just felt like I was wasting too much of the time I have on seeing so much mediocrity and posturing bullshit. I am over social media. It sucks that in order to have some reach with my art endeavors, I will need to do some form of social media promotion. I don't know. It's not that I necessarily care about promoting myself. It's more that I want to connect with others. Something I realized about creating isn't that I need any sort of praise for the shit I do. It's that I feed off of the back and forth from others seeing/hearing what I've done and the energy they send back to me. It's not exactly validating as much as it is feeling like I am not as alien or isolated as I tend to feel in my day-to-day interactions with others. It's a space I am controlling and curating. I am not forced into the expected box of interaction where we talk about the weather or the differences between the freeways and roads in the midwest versus California. And those held in this conversation with me are willing participants. I don't walk away feeling guilty for expressing myself as it comes naturally.
These headphones are fucking baller btw. I am listening to music while I type right now and so far I am not noticing any sort of ouchy pressure coming from the headset. I know I am needlessly wearing down the battery right now, but I need to test whether or not these cause me pain over time like most headphones do.
I feel like I have a lot to say right now, but no idea what these feelings are that I want to express. I am thrumming with creative energy and I am not sure which outlet to use. I have found that creating those lists that I did in my last two entries helped quite a bit, but I don't want to get into the habit of making "to-do lists". The problem I have found with those sorts of lists is that I start to feel confined and trapped and I don't fucking like it. At first they work great and I feel awesome productive. But then, over a period of time, I get overwhelmed and irritated and I shut down. And instead of getting only 3 out of 5 things done on the list, I get none of them. Zero.
NaNoWriMo begins in a month and they are doing some NaNoWriMoPrep stuff. I may participate in the preparation items before November. I don't know. I don't know if I am gungho about participating in NaNoWriMo this year, but I suppose I should. Which reminds me that Inktober literally officially begins today. I guess I do have some shit I could do aside from the "up in the clouds" ideas I have for everything around me. Structure makes me uncomfortable, but also like... I guess I actually need some.
I generally participate in Mab's Drawlloween Club instead of Inktober. If anyone else is looking for something creative to do this month, here is the link to her prompts: www.instagram.com/p/B3Cy3Gjnxhe/
I bought a bad ass pair of wireless headphones. I am really amped to use them for streaming. Which also means, I am amped to get back to streaming!
We got back last night, but I stayed home today because 1. I don't feel very well (Yay! Con sickness!), and 2. I want to clean up this fucking house a bit. It's a bit of a mess. The dog comes home on Saturday and there is some dog proofing that needs to happen. I also need to go grocery shopping and do laundry. I mowed the front lawn yesterday after almost a month of not mowing. The backyard needs to be mowed as well but there was no way I could do that side of the house last night. Way too tired. And of course, today it is a bit wet, so it probably isn't a good idea to try today. Supposedly Thursday is going to be a dry and warm day, so maybe I will get the backyard done on Thursday after work.
I deleted the facebook app and its accompanying messenger app as well. I just felt like I was wasting too much of the time I have on seeing so much mediocrity and posturing bullshit. I am over social media. It sucks that in order to have some reach with my art endeavors, I will need to do some form of social media promotion. I don't know. It's not that I necessarily care about promoting myself. It's more that I want to connect with others. Something I realized about creating isn't that I need any sort of praise for the shit I do. It's that I feed off of the back and forth from others seeing/hearing what I've done and the energy they send back to me. It's not exactly validating as much as it is feeling like I am not as alien or isolated as I tend to feel in my day-to-day interactions with others. It's a space I am controlling and curating. I am not forced into the expected box of interaction where we talk about the weather or the differences between the freeways and roads in the midwest versus California. And those held in this conversation with me are willing participants. I don't walk away feeling guilty for expressing myself as it comes naturally.
These headphones are fucking baller btw. I am listening to music while I type right now and so far I am not noticing any sort of ouchy pressure coming from the headset. I know I am needlessly wearing down the battery right now, but I need to test whether or not these cause me pain over time like most headphones do.
I feel like I have a lot to say right now, but no idea what these feelings are that I want to express. I am thrumming with creative energy and I am not sure which outlet to use. I have found that creating those lists that I did in my last two entries helped quite a bit, but I don't want to get into the habit of making "to-do lists". The problem I have found with those sorts of lists is that I start to feel confined and trapped and I don't fucking like it. At first they work great and I feel awesome productive. But then, over a period of time, I get overwhelmed and irritated and I shut down. And instead of getting only 3 out of 5 things done on the list, I get none of them. Zero.
NaNoWriMo begins in a month and they are doing some NaNoWriMoPrep stuff. I may participate in the preparation items before November. I don't know. I don't know if I am gungho about participating in NaNoWriMo this year, but I suppose I should. Which reminds me that Inktober literally officially begins today. I guess I do have some shit I could do aside from the "up in the clouds" ideas I have for everything around me. Structure makes me uncomfortable, but also like... I guess I actually need some.
I generally participate in Mab's Drawlloween Club instead of Inktober. If anyone else is looking for something creative to do this month, here is the link to her prompts: www.instagram.com/p/B3Cy3Gjnxhe/
